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(no subject) [Jan. 5th, 2015|06:27 am]
I know you love me, for you created me.
Sent your advocate for me.
I will no longer be alone, i will no longer be afraid

My sin drags me down, You will rebuild
it will hold me back. You will lift me up
No more lying, no more trying to pursue false riches
Maybe i cant accept my sins, but i know you love me
You created me you, you my Lord I love, and will never forsake me
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(no subject) [Apr. 5th, 2014|11:50 pm]
Cant believe its been a year....I think i am finally starting to heal, finally starting to feel like my old self again.
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(no subject) [Sep. 3rd, 2013|11:39 pm]
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(no subject) [Aug. 22nd, 2013|02:24 am]
trapped beneath this fog.
I switch on the high beams, i almost thought i saw you.
Escape: Alcatraz style buddy.
These long summer nights have taken a toll, a burden i have yet to succumb to.
My passion is gone, my language is obscure.
the fantasy is dead

 the hope has faded in my heart.

all i have left is a rock, a hardened heart that refuses to give up.

I will never turn away, no mater what i say
no mater what anyone may say.
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(no subject) [Aug. 15th, 2013|02:30 am]
What I want for my country and its people is complete and absolute passion for the American Nation.
The American national could be anyone, a farmer, a lawyer, a factory worker. Religion is irrelevant, Race is Irrelevant.
Our purpose is not to disrupt the meting pot that is this nation. We all have thrived because of it.
The ugly Truth of all this tolerance, is the majority has been eradicated. the majority has been cornered. And we must Rise and band together for the future of our Nation.

1. All american borders be closed off from foreign workers, unless their skills and or education is of the most prestigious and valuable.
2. Muslims from outside the nation must be barred from entry to the American nation until further problems have been solved.
3. The american nationalist will strive to take the wealth back from the central banks
4. The gold standard should be honored, the work of the american nationalist should be the standard of value and not the rigged system the central banks and federal government currently have in place. 
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(no subject) [Jul. 29th, 2013|11:17 pm]
One of the biggest problems in our society, Is the institution of truth. Truth is a relative and unimportant idea to many people. There are many types of truths in the world. the most important truths are ones that were given to us from a higher order, and we all respect them to some extent regardless if we see them as truths, we all seem to agree on most of the fundamental and simple of truths. Today in our society I believe we have a breakdown of truth. There has always been crime, and honestly as the years go by, the crime rate has fallen,a s a percentage of the population. What the real problem is, is the evidence that more and more people seem to respect the truth is relative idea. As long as you are not hurting someone its not wrong, many libertarians some who claim to be conservative hold true with this idea. Truth is in the eye of the beholder, its far more popular in Europe, think its sounds crazy, think again. if you believe that the color of my shirt is blue, but it is in reality orange, you are wrong regardless of what you believe. There needs to be a standard or example of whats right, or wrong. We as humans love to decide whats right and wrong so we can escape from sin. Even if you choose to not recognize sin, it is without a doubt a truth.
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(no subject) [Jul. 23rd, 2013|02:40 pm]
This has been one of the worse weeks in my life. I had a nice long prayer and a cry last night. I am really going to try and change, my poor choices and my  past sins have brought me to my knees. I have nothing left i have hit rock bottom, i need to stand up and let you fill me with your love, i need to look to the future someday ill be okay someday ill find someone who loves me for me, someday ill be able to be somewhat normal. This anxiety is destroying me and i have nothing left. I need to forgive and let these resentments wash away. Last night i felt your peace and i think i was able to let go a little bit.

The one thing that continues to haunt me is what i did.

I still am confused, i was confused and hurt back then, i was extremely addicted to drugs and i was lost.
I let gave in to your temptation and i let that destroy my life. I take blame for all this.
my ki
I did this. walked away. and now im left with nothing, im gonna live for my kids and myself from now on. this hurts it cuts so fucking deep.

I can beat this i will win.
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(no subject) [Jul. 14th, 2013|12:37 pm]
Here I am with my own misery, this is a mystery to me.
I cannot find the time to be happy when you stole away all the memories.
Everything is gray, everything is melting away In front of my face

My biggest sin was walking away from you.
I thought the grass was greener on the other side.
I put my faith in friends who were not friends at all.
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(no subject) [Jul. 12th, 2013|12:00 pm]
Its hard to be a conservative in this generation, everything i say is taken as "hate speech."
I am a tolerant person, but when i have a say, when i am asked about my feelings i'm going to speak my fucking mind.
You liberal shitheads do it, all i do is hear you crap, movies, art, T.V, magizines, news, its a whole big liberal fucking playground.
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(no subject) [Jul. 12th, 2013|11:52 am]

First off, liberalism in this country has evolved, 50 60 years ago liberalism was not nearly as destructive as modern liberalism. Liberals today i would say are not even truly liberal, they are more of political cult, even people who claim to agree with modern liberal beliefs are actually good Americans who have lost there way. I know people who dont think liberalism is dangerous, they think that political beliefs are not powerful or important, well they are wrong. It is true that a large part of americans do not care about politics, but the liberals destroying this country with there anti american beliefs do care about politics and political beliefs are very important to them, anyone who disagrees with them is a threat to there agenda. The extreme liberals in this country glorify drugs, sex and anything goes type of behaviors. they are against decent and common behavior, they are against justice. They treat all people as equal, unless you disagree with them, if you are a conservative or even better a christian conservative you are not welcome  to be a part of there perfect world of sex drugs and anything goes beliefs.

These type of people are more then just liberal, believe me there are plenty of decent and common people who sway left of the political spectrum, extremeists on both sides are dangerous, BUT! at least conservatives stand up for decent and civilized behavior, they stand up for justice, and the american way, they believe that marriage is sacred and drugs should stay illegal.

I am so sick of the fucking perverts destroying my country, and alienating decent people, painting them as loveless intolerant people. Marriage  is a union between a man and a women, you know what marriage isl a flawed institution. 50% of marriage ends in divorce this is a problem with society not marriage itself, god only respects one kind of marriage. one man one women. even if you are an athiest which if your a hardcore liberal you most certainly are, gays should not be allowed to marry even on a scientific matter. Homosexuality is not  natural, the liberals are one step away from claiming its perfectly fine, its normal and there is nothing wrong with it. sex is something that creates life, it has a purpose sex is sacred it is not just some careless activity, its meant to create life, the gays are gonna have there perverted style of sex regardless but why encourage this, why accept it as a must, i never want to say hate, disfranchise a group, but we cannot let this happen.
Kids are in danger. Perverted behavior is being pushed down our throats.
As decent normal people, as Christians, as americans we need to stand up for whats right.
Kids are fragile kids do not have to or should see two men kissing while they send there "son" off to school. Kids do not need hear two women mocking and throwing rocks and decent christian people. Pretty soon they will have courses in universities "Homosexual and Lesbian the new frontier" give me a fucking break, think its crazy, think again. Its right around the corner.

there is alot of things worth complaining about, there are many things worth speaking out about and honestly there is alot of things more dangerous to society then homosexuals being accepted and allowed to marry. Crime, drugs, violence. but this is a very relative subject its a fringe movment thats being pushed down decent peoples throats. I don't encourage hate, we need to accept this to a certain point and i would never harrass a gay person i have known and liked them, but why should they be entilted to marry? why? equal rights? bullshit! what if a  pedifile wants rights? what if a man wants to marry a 16 year old boy..a man and a goat, hink im going overboard? think again. there is no logical reason why they should be allowed to be married, marriage is a god given instituation once homosexuals can be married and adopt that institution no longer means shit to god, we would have finally destroyed a sacred 3,000 plus year institution. You perverts are destroying america.

Dug use? oh thats fine. I have problems with drugs i think we need more work with addiction education and certain punishments. i agree people who are addicted to drugs need help. jail time is no,  helping them. even so, the use of drugs needs to stay on the outside of decent behavior, guilt and shame is a big factor why people get better think im wrong think again.why would someone seek out help or try and quit if what they were doing was completely accepted by society, if they felt no guilt. I know first hand, if herione was legal tomorrow i would be inclined to seek it out. its the cold hard truths the losers in hollywood ands others try and push the argument "oh it would not matter, people already use drugs,no one would start doing drugs just because it was legal" bullshit!!...many people who drink do it because its so socially acceptable...alcholhol is a dangerous drug, and people abuse it because its legal, look at what booze has done to society it has destroyed millions of homes, marijuana is not just some substance, its a frigen drug, IM so sick of these lame brain liberal idiots who are pushing there bullshit and making it far to hard to raise kids. they hate america and they hate themselves, fucking scumbags. you would stick up for an animal before youd stick up for a human..you protect our enemies, you befreind people who would glady throw you and your family in a well.m 
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